Paul Hostovsky

Flirting with the Deaf

I’ve been watching you watching the

interpreter. She is just to the left of the

speaker, and always slightly behind

so that you are always slightly behind

too, your face registering surprise

when the surprise has already been,

your smile on the heels of the other smiles,

your laugh coming after the wave of

laughter subsides. I love the lag time, the

pause between word and sign, the space

between signifier and signifier and

signifed. I want to slip inside that space and sit

across from you, legs crossed, hands

folded in my lap. If I made myself very

small, inconspicuous, insignificant as

another pair of antennae on the wall,

just watching you, quietly, watching the

interpreter, could I, could we, fit?