Jenny Qi
Cockroach
At 9 I went to a school in a rough neighborhood in Las Vegas.
It was called Paradise. My first day a 7-year-old said
fuck you ching chong bitch. You can tell a rough neighborhood
in Las Vegas by people walking. No one walks in the heat
unless they have to. You can tell by how run-down and
low to the ground houses are, like they're embarrassed to be
there, too. Windows have bars like prison cells. The
low cell houses sit beside apartments that look like roach
motels. I lived in one and it was the first time I saw a
cockroach—
a big brown shining thing scuttling
across yellowed linoleum, not cute like the kids’
sheet music for La Cucaracha would have you believe.
A college professor studied cockroach intelligence.
What an aggro word, cockroach.
A man must have coined it.
As if it's not bad enough he wants me
barefoot in the kitchen, he sends a cockroach my way
like a dirty martini.
My father once said I should learn to cook
because I was a girl. Now all I make are smoothies
sweetened with honey.
Maybe if Kafka had been a woman
he would have turned
into a bee
and flown
far away.
